Like I always believed, life is a stage play but of course not to everyone. My ‘play’ or ‘story line’ is getting scarier than I would have thought. I just feel terrified of myself as I’m getting on in life with them; I eventually developed different character and thoughts at the same time. It is like there is a devil in me that wanted to break free when I’m acting angelic which I could feel the devil crying…its like sometimes when I’m feeling really happy inside me, but I could be so mean and have evil thoughts until the extant of doing anything that can ‘cut’ them into pieces without them realizing it was my deeds and sometimes I dun realize what I’m doing myself……and all of this could just be felt at the same moment or minute of time. Or there are few times I was talking to my mom, and suddenly my mind  and vision went blur that couldn’t register that she is my mom but heard a voice in my head telling that she is my mom….just imaging, while I having conversation, all of this could just happen to me. I dunno whether I’m going insane or I’m holding too many personalities. This is what I feel everyday and continuing taking and keeping shits from them without spilling any dissatisfaction to them.